Deeply relate to this. When we went public at $28b 3 years ago, IPO day filled the emotional void for about 30 minutes. Throughout the 9 years of building a company, I was mostly fueled by anger and an "I'll show you" energy. Now that I'm no longer doing that, the struggle is how to find fuel that isn't as destructive. I don't think the startup community talks enough about how often builder energy comes from dark places.