the solutions you seek are right in front of your face, you just have to start implementing them, start small, mea culpas are to be expected when your building a plane as you're flying so start there and get right footed, sticking to and doubling down on decisions that are destroying what you've created for something promised is foolhardy, especially when the network, which should be read as your immune system, is revolting everything in life is an experiment, imagine liking something that later turns out is deleterious to your health, but you made the decision to like it and told everyone about it, so your ego won't let you dissuade your former decision on new information because you feel locked in, the work of info relay seems daunting, but this isn't the way, it's your cognitive bias disabusing your best intentions and people can read between the lines growth means being vulnerable, and above all honest, not just with yourself, but with everyone you're connected to🙏