#三十而立 Having passed thirty, I feel that I have fully experienced and understood "三十而立" (standing firm at thirty). It just so happened that around that time, I found my life's faith (or compass, north star, belief, goal — it doesn't matter, they all mean the same). Personally, I feel this transformation is quite obvious; those who find it can quickly sense that they have gained an immense motivation, many times stronger than before, and a desire for worldly success. Recently, I haven't been making much money, just lying flat, vaguely touching the edges of the "forty and not confused" phase. My current understanding is to accept myself and feel lucky. For a long time, I had a delusion that as long as I started from the same starting line, I could do better than others. This is a double-edged sword, as I have long felt frustrated and dissatisfied while maintaining long-term effort. Three things have helped me digest these delusions well. First, at 1011, I thought I would earn at least ten million dollars, but in reality, I am far from it. Second, even though I am passionate about following AI development, I am still an amateur player, playing with many toys and riding the coattails of the US stock market to make a little. And the third thing is that even after realizing the first two things, I do not intend to put in more effort and try harder while feeling comfortable with my current situation. The first thing has made me stop complaining; I just got into Crypto too late, and now five years have passed, and I am just an old bird. The second thing has made me stop fantasizing about how things would be if I had been born better or had come into contact with the internet earlier. Even if the times had given me greater opportunities, I would still likely be the same as I am now, not much better or worse, just depending on luck. Being a little smarter and a little more hardworking than most people, living a slightly better life, and secretly enjoying it.