Your honest efforts will always be rewarded by the universe in its own ways, so stop measuring them through the limited range of senses we’re operating with. Simply enjoy the joy of making an effort, and try to find positivity even in “projected failures.” That acceptance alone would help you keep moving towards something beautiful which would last longer in your life as a source of permanent joy. Because you are permanent; it’s just that your focus is more on the shell, not on the life inside that shell. When you realise how the shell actually exists, you will begin your “first day” in the cyclic nature of time while having awareness about it, getting truly involved in what those moments will reveal to you as you keep walking forward towards something larger than life that you can’t even describe in words.