I think people expected me to be more sad about not winning creator of the year Or want me to share how I "really" feel The thing is, I've broken bones, had no money, slept in my car, been depressed, been heart-broken, and pretty much dealt with everything life can throw at you Last week I was in Manila with my best friends playing video games, making content, and doing work that I deeply believe in and am lucky to do every day I was so happy and fulfilled and smiled and danced thru every moment as I usually do The award would've been great, but I was not sad to lose it I also have high levels of compersion and feel happy seeing others happy It's a great award, but it's just an award We'll get em next year :D