I’m not surprised that mega dosing practices for years aimed at changing default os and motivations / perceptions does what it says on the tin. but it is surprising how little the brain keeps the old os around. most books, songs, etc now sound like they’re about an alien species

in some ways I relate more to like dogs. they want to go pee they go pee, they want to go outside and run, they get too hot or too cold, I get those things too

like I don’t feel like I’m in a world at all, there’s a self transforming space and when the legs move it causally transforms the space in a reliable way, the pixels fall away and the ones that arise next the body has gone a bit forward, it’s all transforming together

it feels really nice and beautiful, part of a continuity of awareness arising and passing going back billions of years, sharing the space with all beings in some sense, like a wave flowing forward in a great ocean, the shimmerings of each sensation so rich and beautiful

there’s no sense of “trying to move the legs” they just move but not as a separate thing, the whole space is always moving, nothing special about the legs at all, no felt boundary around them, they’re like the wind or whatever

there’s no sense of being my body’s age, there’s this moment (30ms) and there’s the age since this wave started (billions of years?) the middle ground doesn’t seem fundamental at all

there’s no sense of being my body’s age, there’s this moment (30ms or so?) and there’s the age since this wave started (billions of years?) the middle ground doesn’t seem fundamental at all

so then I listen to a taylor swift song or whatever and I like the rhythm and melody but the lyrics don’t make any sense

I don’t mean to like speak for meditation in general or anything like that, just my experience. recommend!